| Just got back from my duty from the OR/DR and I'm so tired!
I'm so stressed being a student nurse, lol. I don't think I want to get pregnant - ever. Soooo painful. If I would I'd probably have epidural anesthesia. Save me from the pain.
At the same time I'm a little depress since my first assist wasn't so successful since the baby had difficulty coming out. I also feel that I'm so lost in the area I keep thinking that I'm just not fit for this. -rolls eyes- oh well, have to finish what you started.
Deep inside I'm kind of a perfectionist and if I can't do it perfectly I don't want to do it at all... which I could somehow apply in my present state. =(
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| My friend computed my grades exactly right. 85 84 and 83 on my major subjects. It's funny cause I never bothered to compute my grades before laying it all and wishing for some miracle.
I feel sad since some of my friends and batchmates did not make it. 2 were even from my duty area in the last shift. It's just so sad. But I heard from somebody, nothing happens by chance and maybe all of this has a reason.
Sometimes I wonder, where does this all lead to? We study, to work and we work to earn money and then one day we die. Depressing I know, but maybe there's a reason to this madness of existence, there must be...otherwise why dont we all just disappear...
I'm musing cause i'm delaying doing my research. I just dont get. It's all so redundant. I miss the simple scientific steps that we used to do in grade school and high school.
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| I'm FREE! I'm FREE! Free of tests and exams and waking up early at the ungodly hour of 5 am in half terror at arriving in school 6:46 am. half crazy thinkking, heart thumping, " OMG I'm late... wait was that my 3rd late??? Oh no make-up duty! 60pesos x 15H = ???"
Anyways... I only have 4H of make-up duty due to NCC = No class card! Eek... hehe
Among other things, I was thinking the other day as I was watching the new PBB teen edition (yup i watch it)...they're all like 16, 17, 18 and I'm like... omg, 19 already! No way! Where did the years go? Next june I'm going to be a Senior! then I'm going to graduate...it's all so surreal. I feel like I haven't changed much and still stuck in my childish ways (like most of the times). So is that a bad thing or a good thing?
I guess everyone grows at their own pace.
Hope I'll pass ncm, patho and pharma =) 
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| We just had our CPR training and it was fun! They even had this dummy that has a pulse and I was so surprised I thought I was just imagining it. Although I think I'm going to get bacteria from all those kissing the dummies yuck, Tastes like alcohol and rubber.
I passed my Pharma and Patho! Wow... I don't know how it happened. From a 74 in my prelims to an 83 (I guess) to my finals. Magick. lol
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